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We are 7 weeks, 6 days out from the birth of Graham. He actually slept for 5 hours last night which is a record. The most we’ve gotten up to this point was 3.5 or so. He’s completely on formula. His system is getting used to it finally. He napped today more that he has since he was born and I’m thankful.

The last 45 days have been a blur of bottles, dirty diapers, fractured sleep, crying baby, fuzzy brain, and who knows what else.
I’ve learned to let go a little and go with it. He is a sweet baby. He smiles a lot. He’s making fun noises that sound like laughter or babble. He makes me smile.

My day looked like this:

5:30 am – up to fix a bottle for Graham
6:50 – up again to fix coffee, make lunch, shower, and get ready before JD left at 7:45
8:20 – took Garner to school
9-12 – worked on various work items for ECS. Researched WW.
2:30 – JD stopped by to say  hello and give me a moment of adult conversation
4:45 – headed to pick up Garner
5:45 – dinner – Rotisserie Chicken, Mashed Potatoes, Steamer veggies – nothing that required cooking.

It’s been too hot to cook and I’ve been too tired to think about it. I have moments where all I want is a night’s sleep, or a girl’s night, or a vacation.

Stop reading if you don’t want to read about diet and weight loss.

So today I hit the end of the constant diet conversation in my head. I probably saw about 15 commercials for Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers while I was watching the Hallmark Channel – Martha and the Waltons – I know. I logged on, went to WW and joined. I’ve half heartedly done WW before. I haven’t had the motivation I have this time. 40 is coming ’round the corner fast and my goal is to be at my goal when that day comes.

Mini motivation – trip to the beach in 2 weeks, JD’s 20 year high school reunion, Fall clothes, going back to work.

I figured the best way to be accountable was to put here. I’ll document my progress on this blog. I will not put my weight or measurements because I’m really to vain for that. But, I will track my progress, my ups, my downs, my good recipes, my strategy, my challenges…all here.

My goal is to lose 47 lbs. I’ll be in my taget BMI. I’ll be in my perfect size. I’ll be healthy and thankful.

Mini goal #1 – 7 lbs, white jeans (that I won’t wear after Labor Day but I can at least try them on). I think it will take more than 7 lbs to get in them but I have to have mini goals.
Goal #1 Reward – manicure

Once I reach goal #1, I’ll set goal #2.

I’m a stress eater. I’m a bored eater. I’m a social eater. I graze throughout the day on junk. I’m a decent eater at meals – just have to get those snack under control. I want this to be the last major weight loss I ever do. I’ve spent half my life not being the size or weight I want to be or should be. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life wishing I were thinner.

My prayer: :”Lord, I want my body to be a temple for you. I want to be healthy for my family. I want to show my children healthy eating habits. Lord help me to be mindful with every bite I take. Help me to stop and ask myself if I am really hungry before putting something in my mouth. You are almighty and powerful and I know I can accomplish this through you. I give  you all glory and honor as I move forward.”

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